Self Pep Talk

So I laid into myself earlier I made myself feel like a loser earlier I looked at the ‘To Do’ pile I ignored the ‘Done’ pile Why are people such amnesiacs when it comes to what’s been done? Why can’t the feelings of achievement last? Why can’t anything? Everything is in constant movement That does… Continue reading Self Pep Talk

Happy lostness

I’m happy I don’t know how to live like this I can’t create from this I don’t have motivation from this Maybe it is temporary I am sure it is Everything is Every stage I have been through has been a stage that’s passed so fast I can’t stay put I have to put more… Continue reading Happy lostness

Prose update

I am on a sort of hiatus. A creative one that is. Or shall I say I have not been granted the means to make work of an official nature but can still have ideas and write poems. I don’t want to be cryptic or confessional. Since graduating University three years ago I have been… Continue reading Prose update

Identity

Identity Fragmented reality Western faith The self Eastern faith One’s growth West and East compliment and clash I relish the growth I panic at the loss of established identity I shift into another one I incorporate a few a hybrid of then and now and later I have a mission To change what does not… Continue reading Identity

Heimat

Home as in homeland Home as in safe space Home as in current residence Home as in reference point Home as in love that rattles you to your core and comes out as a fountain up above Home as in youth Home as in where I grow old Home as in where I have my… Continue reading Heimat

Dream turns Traum

Closing my eyes immediately transported somewhere uncanny nothing safe all tricking me The feigned safety of the past I am walking on a road the landscape a hybrid of old Nicosia and Paul-Linke Ufer There is a fork in the road planted grass and flowers in between I walk with my partner Our friend walks… Continue reading Dream turns Traum

Nondescript landing

Summer that feels like autumn The end of a holiday that feels like the end of blindness Being able to see without being frightened of what I am seeing Landing at the expected destination after a long delay in no man’s land Seeing land Getting there I can see where I am going

Goodbye Pappou

My Cypriot grandfather died yesterday my Pappou 17 years and 1 day after My Cypriot grandmother my Yiayia They both went quickly In the ambulance The funeral is tomorrow It’s 45 Degrees in Cyprus now He was 92 It still hurts even if you expect it That strange realisation you will never talk to them… Continue reading Goodbye Pappou

Confused

Is it my heart? Is it my ego? Is it my trauma? Is it my humanness? Is it a habit? Does it help to give the feeling meaning? Or does it corrupt what it is All it is A feeling I was comfortable with just that I think I was more consistently happy about the… Continue reading Confused

Positive Post

I feel that I am giving an unrepresentative picture of my life and myself. I have come to the realisation that I am highly nervous, despite a cool exterior a lot of the time. It tends to then implode before a private explosion if prodded by a loved one. After a lot of talking about… Continue reading Positive Post