I’m happy
I don’t know how to live like this
I can’t create from this
I don’t have motivation from this
Maybe it is temporary
I am sure it is
Everything is
Every stage I have been through
has been
a stage
that’s passed
so fast
I can’t stay put
I have to put more on my plate
Private things
Maybe I don’t have to
disclose anything else
Maybe all I was doing for all these years was
crying out for help
for love
for appreciation
I’ve stopped shouting now
I have what I need
I don’t know who this new person will become
but I am sure I will find out
Ground zero is a frightful place
Only I am so relieved
I am empty now
I can’t re-ingest my crap
My head is throbbing
I am dehydrated
I’ve spent two days in bed
I’ve thought of options
I’ve got a timeline
My desires are surpassing my plan
I’ll get it together
I am only human
I need to learn to rest
without guilt or illness
This
is all I can do
right now
It won’t be right now
for very long