I’ve been on a long journey
away from myself
to find more of myself
to grow my new life
after culling the last one
In these four years which feel like ten
I have become part of a new world
learnt new language
experienced new worlds
explored new subcultures
made new people
lost life
went back to round zero again
to try to build something new on my ever-changing storm-swept plot
At the beginning again
always forgetting the time before
thinking that I have nothing to build on
despite having so much
Isolating myself when the world is just outside my window
Being petrified that I made the wrong choices
but accepting that I did what I thought was best at the time
Maybe I am not where I thought I would be
but I am somewhere all the same
and as places go it’s a good one
This long drive has taken me to many destinations
and however much I liked them I knew I could not stay forever
They would start evaporating and disappearing before my eyes
My transient feelings getting me up and out again
Moving forward and maybe backward
So far from where I started
It is impossible to go back
Just how it should be