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If you are friends with everyone who are your real friends? If you have sex with anyone who do you really love? If you like everything what do you really want? If you have a massive bank account what is the value of your money? Abundance or Scarcity Creativity Evolution Gluttony Unappreciation Once I distract… Continue reading Much

My home your safety My hell your sanctuary Your worth my mess My location your destination An open door to my private space A public opening in intimacy A suggestion without the access A satisfaction without knowing The Salon with few words You can come in and out How will I feel afterwards? Did I… Continue reading A Space

So I’ve made it to that point Adulthood I finished a University degree I still want another one I got married I think I just want to do that once I have talked about property kids work travel I sussed out the value system of the society I now live in Work seems to be… Continue reading Adult

Today I got on Skype with my old housemate We went through my Boxes in his storeroom He touched every possession I gave him permission to bag, pack, chuck, give away my stuff I trusted him completely After about an hour I was so chuffed at how unembarassing and unawkward this process was It was… Continue reading Clearing out the Boxes

We went to Venice We took a bus to a remote town We were picked up by the brother of a friend We were taken to our BnB (not Air) We prepared for a pre-wedding party We went I spoke German In Italy The next day we put on our best For the wedding I… Continue reading The Honeymoon

So I got married To a man So I signed some papers after an earnest man in a suit said a whole lot of German words that moved and challenged me after playing a Cat Stevens track And I was dazed for a day Then I started coming to And feeling more than I had… Continue reading So I got married

My stitches finally came out The last of them Nothing hurts anymore Soreness is bearable My breathing is shallow I can’t catch my breath It’s not going down deep enough It’s like I can’t yawn fully All the time My brain is boiling slowly inside my cranium There is nothing to worry about Nothing is… Continue reading Failure to self-soothe

I practiced Yoga since I was 16. At first nearly everyday for years, then less and less. At 26 I lost interest and because I did not live in places that were big enough and I didn’t have enough money for classes, I practically stopped. After a nearly two year hiatus I joined a large… Continue reading Head Stand

On Friday afternoon, after my class, I made my way to the dental surgeon on the other side of town, who was meant to remove all 4 of my wisdom teeth, with local anaesthetic. I was 30 minutes early, the doctor was 15 minutes late. Each tooth got 3 injections before we began. My lip… Continue reading Wisdom

Today I thought of you, blog. I have not spoken to you for a while. I must have been happy for a while. I still am. I feel I need to check in with you, my silent therapist. It is Spring. My body feels good, despite a mundane ache and pain here and there. My… Continue reading It’s been a while