Stream of consciousness

It stormed today

Looking out from the underground

the water came down like

a high-powered shower

People I know are

on a raft in the river

now

I am inside and cosy

I am going to make

lamb soup

I am a little worried

about the river people

For my last post

I described a PTSD episode

I went to all levels of distress and disgrace

I felt it was necessary

Everything is grey

Strength

is found in the most unexpected places

and

lacking in the most expected

I never know which it is

until it happens

I have been peaceful

for

a week or so now

I don’t know how long it will last

but

I have a plan for next time

Surrender

No fight

Can’t fight a hologram

Sit in the angst

Breathe through the two minutes of

fight-fright-flight

adrenaline

Disengage

The only danger

is the fear

Nothing else exists

anymore