My life goal
Self-sufficiency
Take care of myself
by myself
Lean on myself
Ask for nothing
It goes a long way
Through splitting
Me
my hurt
my keen awareness
my analysis
my plan
to make it better again
Constantly working on it
Constantly working on me
Everything is there to decode and understand
I just have to talk to myself
find out what I need
find a way to get it
Comfort
Soothing
was missing for a long time
It had to be violent to get through to me
Having someone else helped
Co-dependency: A dirty word
Inter-dependency: A more acceptable term to use
as part of my vocabulary
Still not comfortable
I cut off
I convince myself I need nobody
Not intimately anyway
Everything feels harder
Porousness closes up
Isolation sets in
It gets cold
Some lava inside starts to bubble
It erupts
The icy exterior explodes and melts
The elements mix again
Balancing
Inter-depending with and on
Otherwise I become a lone barren universe