Grief 2

My midwife said

that my baby dying will bring up

historical issues and open old wounds

stemming from the past

injuries to my womanhood

My body has let me down

once again

It has been placed under circumstances

in which it had little control

and a person died inside it

Its responsibility

My failure

Wanting something and going through the motions to get it

will not always get you it

However hard you try

We think we can control so much

And we can

But when it comes to

life and death

there is no logic

and sometimes no mercy

One of those things that happens to everyone

so randomly

too quickly

not fast enough

A life lost is a life extended

through others’ efforts

Acceptance

Detachment

Pridelessness

Respect

Trust

All theoretical ingredients

for Love

In practice

the hardest cake to bake