There are so many more words
for this state
It is more than a feeling
It is an all-consuming condition
I felt fine
until an apparent trigger
that sent me off my orbit
into a dark space
where I made all the wrong decisions
and my life will amount to nothing
I want to live in a world where
not knowing what the future holds
is a comfortable feeling
I want to accept that
everything will not be alright
but some things will
I want to remember what I have
before I spiral
And I want to feel worthy
Yes
I want to finally feel my value
Just knowing and thinking is not enough
My long-term thinking failed me yesterday
I was assessing from the present moment
Nothing from before
Nothing in the future
Just now
This is not a spiritual state
It is destructive
Being in the now
is not always where to be